Autism & Grieving

These last few weeks have been incredibly hard, not only for me, but for everyone who loved and cherished the ground my Grandad walked on.

The main two, being my Dad and my Uncle. My Uncle has autism which makes it incredibly difficult to show his emotions as most of us can, he has to have someone he can fully trust around him at all times, which for him was my Grandad.

These two were inseparable.

From the day Jason was born my Grandad gave up his life to care for Jason, to give him the best life he possibly could. Which he did, very, very well. Me and the family will forever be grateful to that man. Jason is the kindest, loveliest man you’ll ever meet.

A small example is yesterday, we were at the crematorium yesterday looking at Grandads paperwork and he opened the car door for me and shut it behind me. What a true gent.

The bond between me, my Dad and Jason now is something like never before, we are taking Jason to places he’s never seen, letting him do things he’s never done before. Which is AMAZING to see him do.

My Dad has now taken the role as ‘Main Carer’. He has given up his everyday life to look after Jason. That takes a true person to do such a thing, and I couldn’t be prouder of him.

Our threes bond is unbreakable.

Now Grandad, it’s our turn to our bit for Jason, you rest well up there. I’ll love you forever.

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Negative to Positive

I’ve been reflecting on the last couple of years in my head, things have been floating around and been on my mind for a while and it’s nice to finally feel myself again!

2018 has already by far been the worst start to the year ever, my lovely grandad passed away after being admitted to hospital at the beginning of January, I’ve lost friends that I thought would stick around for a lifetime, I’ve lost a lot of self-confidence and the list goes on…

But, there is nothing worse than dwelling on things that have happened, so I’ve turned them into positives.

I’m not normally one to self-reflect and work things out as to why I’m feeling the way I am or always asking myself ‘why do I always have some bad news come and hit me without warning’, but, I’ve focused more on myself and my emotions and I’m starting to feel so good, finally!

Things that have really helped me are things like, taking time off of social media, taking half an hour an evening to have a long bath with your favourite bath bomb or face mask, eliminate negative people/things or tasks from your life that bring you down, not taking for granted who is always there for you and cares for you. And making sure you book things to look forward too in the next coming months!

(That’s just a few)

I know with everyone’s busy day-to-day lives it’s so difficult to manage work, family, friends and then yourself. But I can’t stress how much fitting yourself in your daily routine is so important! The difference it makes to yourself and your family is wonderful.

If any of you ever need a chat about problems, things your struggling with or anything that’s bothering you, I’m always here.

Here’s to a better second half of 2018!

Leigha X

Sunday & Society

It’s that day that no one really likes because they know that they have work tomorrow, but, as the snow has finally disappeared it’s a time to feel re-energised and motivated as summer is just around the corner, right?

The second month after the new year and it’s safe to say, I haven’t stuck to any of my New Years resolutions. But I’m going to make it a priority this year to travel, go out of my comfort zone and do more things that normally make me feel super anxious.

“If you can dream it, you can do it”

Another priority for me, now I am back in Patient Transport I have a lot more time to spend time with my family, which is so important. It’s important to make the most of the time you’ve got with them, talk to them about there childhood memories and don’t forget to tell them you love them.

In between seeing my family, I try and help other people’s families, the homeless and others in need of someone to talk too. There are far too many nasty people in this world, it’s so important to be kind and be grateful for the life you live and make other people’s lives worth living if they are less fortunate than you are.

It’s the little things isn’t it, smile to a stranger, if someone looks like they are struggling, help them. If you see someone homeless, buy them a hot drink in this freezing weather, for example.

It will make our society a much better place than it is now and bring people closer together!

So this week whilst you’re at work, school, college or on annual leave, do something kind for someone you know, a stranger or family you haven’t seen for a while.

Make there day and let’s make the world a better place, together.

Comment on this post what you have done for someone, share your experiences and motivate one another for the weeks ahead!

Leigha X

My First Cardiac Arrest

Since starting work for the Frontline Ambulance Service, I was always wondering when a ‘Cat A Red 1’ call for a Cardiac Arrest would come through. Being only three months into the job, I was and still am nervous for each day I am on the road.

May the 3rd came around and it started out as a pretty average day, until 7.36pm when that dreaded call came through…Cardiac Arrest for a male aged 35. The emotions that were running through my body were so intense. Me and my crew mate grabbed the keys so quickly from the table and ran to the vehicle. I put the lights on then off we went, for what felt like the quickest drive of my life.

We were only ½ a mile away from the patient. When we arrived, there was two paramedics already on scene giving the male cpr and putting the defib on his chest. Just seeing the gentleman on the floor in the street, I felt so emotional but the adrenaline in my body took over and I became numb. I went with our equipment, threw it onto the floor (not literally) and swapped with the paramedic on the chest as I could see he was getting tired and we wanted to keep the strength going to give him, hopefully, another chance at life.

Everything became a bit of a blur, but I remember a fire truck, three ambulances, one paramedic car and a police car all at the scene. We were all working as a team to help this gentleman, the teamwork was in fact phenomenal. Giving him all the drugs that we could have, 45 minutes had passed, checking for a pulse every time the defib analyzed and still no sign of life.

The CCP at the head, was directing us all and the dreaded words “two more rounds, check for a pulse, if there is still no sign, we are going to stop”. My heart sunk and I just wanted to keep going, but I knew it was for the best for him. The two rounds were up…another pulse check and…nothing. We all stopped. As we stopped I started to unwrap some blankets to put over him out for his own dignity. Me and the CCP had the job of putting his arms by his side and placing several blankets over his body until the private ambulance arrived.

All of us gathered together to discuss the job and how we all felt it was, we were all looking at each other. I could feel a lot of emotion in the air and I just wanted to cry. A paramedic opposite me started crying whilst the CCP asked me how I felt it went, I didn’t know what to say and just started crying.

He took me aside after the de-brief and told me it is alright to cry and I did the best I possibly could for this gentleman and I did a brilliant job for my firsts time of resuscitation. I felt a sense of joy, but I felt more upset that I didn’t manage to bring him back.

Here’s a little introduction about me…

Hi there, I’m Leigha.

I’m almost 21 years old and I live in the good ‘ol Sunshine Coast. I have a dog and a cat, they are both super cute and you will be seeing a lot of them for sure! Food…. you will be seeing a lot of that too (who doesn’t love a bit of grub!) oh, yeah, I also have an obsession for cheese. oops.

Now, as you didn’t know (you may do, if you follow me on social media) I have had two years in the Ambulance Service now, both on Frontline and Patient Transport.

So, what brings me to making blogs?…

Well, I’ve been itching to write my experiences down for a long while now, and I feel that this time in my life, I’m in the right place to share all my traumatic, overwhelming, uplifting and rewarding jobs I’ve been to on my travels around Sussex and Surrey.

For any of you out there that have seen some horrible sights in your time, whether you are in the service or not, I want this to be a place where you can reflect, discuss, be inspired and most importantly, not feel alone along the way.

Yes, I have been to hell and back (..and back again) from the sights I have seen and the jobs that I have had to deal with. But, it has been the best thing I have ever experienced without a shadow of a doubt and I’m super excited to go into depths with what I have witnessed, the good, the bad and all the bits in-between! 

Anyway, there’s a little bit about me. As I am new to this, your feedback will be mostly appreciated and I look forward to going on this journey with you all.

Leigha X